I'm just going outside [poem]

 

the good friend the bad friend the dead friend the ally

voice this voice that instead again

authentic voice wry voice voice of youth voice of reason voice of limitation

this year next year last year theme theme theme

ooh! ahh! dahling!

 

 

Bitter? 

Batter? Better? Botter? Butter?

Borrow buttered burrow barrow.

Balletic? Or bollocks?

Bewildering.

 

 

But light! But gay! But transparent! But wounded! But oozing!

Slippery deceits. Convoluted involvuli. Inaccurate vernacular.

Pitfalls at every turn.

 

 

 

Angry? You don’t know the fucking half of it.

 

 

 

Fuck effort.  Fuck diligence. Fuck

commitment. Fuck discipline. Fuck

sustained engagement with your craft.

Fuck building a constituency.

Fuck building your reputation.

Fuck playing the game.

 

 

 

Fuck judges. Fuck diversity.  Fuck

ridiculous spectacles. Fuck

sympathy.

 

 

 

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